My fiance' wants to get married as soon as I get well.
But what is getting well for me? Doctors say I have about 20% chances to make it past 5 years.
So what does "getting well" mean for me?
People usually think themselves in a projection of years to come. Thinking and planning for this year, the next, taking loans and building for the future. What is my future?
Next month, in two weeks, I will have CT scans again, to see what happened to the metastasis in the liver. This is as far as I can see my future. Two weeks ahead...
It sounds so depressing...
So I am planning my wedding instead. And dream and hope and love and pray to our God of Love to let me stay.
But what is getting well for me? Doctors say I have about 20% chances to make it past 5 years.
So what does "getting well" mean for me?
People usually think themselves in a projection of years to come. Thinking and planning for this year, the next, taking loans and building for the future. What is my future?
Next month, in two weeks, I will have CT scans again, to see what happened to the metastasis in the liver. This is as far as I can see my future. Two weeks ahead...
It sounds so depressing...
So I am planning my wedding instead. And dream and hope and love and pray to our God of Love to let me stay.
